i've been wearing my red Chucks consistently since christmas. i'm not going to lie, i'm extremely nervous. why i worry so much about a fictional alien who is going to be okay anyway is a mystery.

i think it's just that it's Ten, and i love him so much. i started watching last august after series 4 was off the air, and i started from series 1 on via youtube. Nine was great, and i'm very fond of him, but Ten... i don't know, really. there's something about him that really gets me. and it will be devastating to see him go, no matter how good Eleven turns out to be. so i'm thinking about him, these last few days.
i'll be burning a candle for him, too. /emo

here are some songs that remind me of Ten. some more obvious than others.
( lyrics and rambling inside; also there are some marked spoilers for EOTP1 )

I had my first day at work yesterday....... It actually went... well!
I didn't kill anything. I didn't screw up. And I think the other people at work don't hate me.

At the moment all I'm doing is grunt work, but that's perfectly fine by me. I leave for my second day in just over an hour.

My uncles came over to visit over the weekend, which was why I was... not here.
I'll post my presents soon, I promise!

9 DVD came out today.... I will pick it up or someone will DIE.
And that Special Edition had better exist!

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Day 19: A talent of mine/ Day 20: A hobby of mine

Writing, both a hobby and probably my singular talent. Other than eating far too much than any one person should.

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it's just slightly embarassing to have THAT RHYTHM stuck in my head, but i do. and i have. on and off, for a long while.

but, given the current situation, it's a little more than just creepy.



xxxX xxxX xxxX xxxX xxxX xxxX

Back to public entries, I got bored having them friends only -laughs- . I've been meaning to write a journal for a while now. I was actually planning on having it be very poetic, just like my old ones, full of sorrow and using words that could only catch the eyes of the desperate. But I stopped, and actually thought about what I was feeling before defaulting to melancholy.

Since I've been home I've been hit with an overwhelming sense of nostalgia. Everywhere I look I get echos of memories reeling in the back of my mind. Like, is any of this for real... or not?

Playing Kingdom Hearts 358/2 and getting back into the fandom has been trying. I keep remembering summer nights at Danica's house, just dicking around. -shakes her head- But I'm making new memories. Ones that aren't lined with sadness and clouded with anguish.

I started reading over Tease again. It's one of my favourite Kingdom Hearts fanfiction, if not the favourite. I remember when I started reading it it still wasn't finished. And I was waiting in English after school because I had to take a test. But as soon as I was done Danica jumped up and told me that the last chapter was updated.

It makes me smile, remembering the times I had with her. But in truth I'm glad it's over. And if given the choice, I wouldn't go back. I've grown up, gained a sense of self, became my own person instead of a reverberation of what I thought people wanted me to be. I knew that when I was in the Keys summer before senior year, but I think I'm truly realizing what it means now.

I've changed so much from the lost puppy I used to be. I touch my key necklace and remember when it was a keyblade, nearly 4 years ago.

If I keep to myself here, summer will wash over me. I'm not sure how, perhaps it's the music I'm listening to, maybe it's my memories, but I could swear I hear warm breezes whisping over the tress outside. I long to have my summer skin again. When I look in the mirror... I'm sickly white. When did that happen?

I'm not quite sure how to describe this feeling. I'm dreaming. But which parts... were the dream? I'd like to get out of this town. It's no longer my home. Hasn't been for a while. I have a place now, in Memphis, with people I care about. I can go to the store there and not worry about running into pieces of my past.

I wonder if I'll always feel that way. Trying to avoid people who I've left, or maybe never really were a part of to begin with. Having to move every ten, twenty, years. Too much baggage in one place. Time to move on.


I still have a lot of growing to do.

last night i played my first bit of music on my guitar. nothing special, because i still haven't got it restringed to play lefty yet, but i'm figuring out the relationships between the strings.
i played the beginning phrase of "on a day like this" by Elbow. on one string, but i did it by ear. i hummed the notes and found the equivalent [and found both my notes and the string to be exactly in tune, which very pleasantly surprised me] on the string, and after about 20 minutes, i could slowly pluck out the phrase on that one string. baby steps, but my heart soared.

it's going to be strange, working with more than one string at a time. i'm so used to the relatively simple trombone. you use the correct lip partial, you move your arm out, you move your arm in. no remembering where things are outside a very basic group of slide positions. nothing fancy, no massive numbers of possible combinations, and not very hard to fuck up.
if you don't press down the string hard enough, you get this awful pluck noise or dissonant rattling instead of the pretty sound. i can see finger calluses in my future. but i'll bear them as the marks of a musician. <3

"Every one of us is, in the cosmic perspective, precious. If a human disagrees with you, let him live. In a hundred billion galaxies you will not find another."

well, we certainly won't find another like you, that's for sure.
[this is one of like ten thousand just as lovely quotes i could post here... just sayin'.]

The Macedonian International News Agency reports here that Gorillaz Sound System will play a show on New Year's Eve (December 31st) in Skopje, Macedonia at Skopje Fair. Macedonian composer and DJ Kiril Dzajkovski will be the other main act on the night. The New Year's party is organised by the City of Skopje and ONE telecommunications operator.

Lots of info on Gorillaz Sound System, as ever, can be found here.


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http://www.spacex.com/

i find more commercial spaceflight groups every day, and it lightens my heart. progress is being made.

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Day 18: Whatever tickles my fancy:
Zen-mama kicks ASS. And this video she/he made proves it.


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I know I had a... ok one.

I blame my dad, not my mom. She actually understood I was tired beyond all belief, my dad was an ass.

But I gots my webcam! I shall install it, use it, and show you all my wonderful gifts!

But not tonight... my room looks like crap and I have to clean it since my monitor faces my bed. And my uncles are coming to visit tomorrow, YAY!

( xmaaaasssss )

so: what should i name my guitar? i was thinking since it's a twelve-string, i ought to use the word 'twelve' in it somewhere. probably in another language. like dodeca-something?

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Day 15: A fanatic /Day 16: A song that makes me cry:

Konata and Madarame, fear their awesome Otaku-ness! Or worship, in my case.




Why must this song be so sad...? This version actually makes me cry more than the ORIGINAL!
Maybe it's the voice.

( 17-30 )

I JUST REALIZED NEW DOCTOR WHO EPISODE TOMORROW

oh god i am going to cry after part 2 :C WHEN DOES PART 2 AIR?

looool i got called a "scrooge" for saying merry sciencemas on facebook instead of merry christmas. i mean I GUESS i wasn't just being contrary what with all the people extravagantly pointing out "merry CHRIST!!!!!!mas" etc. or anything :B

edit: i mean i COULD have said MERRY WINTER SOLSTICE BIRTH OF THE SUN GOD-MAS [as ms. GYD said] but that would have been entirely too accurate. and also ~offensive~

jp917 sends the news that two top DJs / remixers have tweeted about remixing a Gorillaz track in the last few days.

On December 21st Yuksek ( more information on Wikipedia here ) tweeted "just finished GORILLAZ remix". Link to the tweet here and Yuksek's Twitter is here.

On December 22nd Steve Angello ( more information on Wikipedia here ) tweeted "Gorillaz remix in the works !!", adding slightly later "btw .. Gorillaz remix is nasty !!!". Link to the tweets here and here and Steve Angello's Twitter is here.

With Gorillaz promotion about to swing into full effect in 2010, it's likely these DJs are amongst those officially commissioned to remix tracks, or a particular track, from Gorillaz' forthcoming third album 'Plastic Beach'.


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EDIT: OK, I planned on removing AVG but instead I removed avast! for a few reasons.
1) It was bigger, 2) I hate trying to use it, 3) It uses more resources, and 4) I have one single virus in the Virus Vault on AVG and I didn't want to chance it because it's been there for over three months with no problem.

And guess what? Computer not only restarted without a hitch, but everything is loading faster including the internet and start up programs.


OK, this is starting to piss me off.

My computer has been on the fritz ever since my brother forced me to install avast! on it and tried to install a copy of Sony Vegas (and it didn't work right so he uninstalled it).

Today it decided to randomly STOP READING USBs. The fuck?! And when I tried to restart it, it was stuck in "Windows is Shutting Down". And when I try to put it in sleep mode half the time, it does the same thing. So I have to manually turn it off. Luckily the problem is always fixed, for example the drives are reading again.
If he fucked up my computer and I have to wipe it out... his ass is going to be in a WORLD of hurt, believe me.

i found a bird nest sitting in mason's yard today <333 instantly wanted to put it on my altar. unfortunately, the altar is at stormy-height, and he finds it interesting. hopefully it will last T_T

i'm also changing my wicca tab to paganism, since wicca doesn't really describe it accurately anymore. :3